I’m on Spring Break this week, so I’ve pulled a post from my archives – 9/24/2009. Have a great weekend! See you back here on Tuesday!
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Papa,
You’re challenging me. Pushing me out of my comfort zone. I remember this feeling. I felt it seven years ago when You rocked my world and tore down some walls in me that I didn’t even know existed.
But this time, this time I’m fully aware. I’m conscious of what You’re doing. Gently reminding me through study and interaction that my life is not my own. And that to be totally sold out to You, there are just some things that I need to do.
I’ve grown. So You’re handling me different this time – oh, I recognize the prodding, the leading, the guiding. But it’s different. It’s stronger. It reminds me of how I handle my 13 year old versus my 3 year old. Yeah. That’s it. I’m not 3 anymore.
I feel the hunger, the desire, the yearning, to be in Your presence – to continually be in Your presence – to be so intertwined and wrapped up in You that there is no transition, it’s just a seamless relationship. A comfortable, challenging and fulfilling place to be. It’s growing in me daily. I need it. I want it. I have to have it.
So, while You’re jackhammering this heart of stone and forming my new, fleshy heart, I will do my part to die daily to my flesh, to resist the default thinking patterns I’ve so recklessly created, to live in a constant state of worship, to have fun, to live life to the fullest, to trust You implicitly, and to share Your love with anyone and everyone I can.
I’ll anticipate divine appointments.
I’ll take risks.
I’ll embrace this change, this season.
I’ll invest my time wisely.
I’ll soak in Your presence.
I’ll continually move forward,
Your Spirit the current that moves me.
I won’t be afraid.
I won’t be afraid.
I won’t be afraid.
I love You.
I love You Papa.







