Random Thoughts . . .

This poor blog has been neglected, hasn’t it?  Honestly, life has been so busy and well, I just felt like I didn’t have words.  But there are things I want to document.  So I guess I better find those words, eh?

Homeschool and Zoe

We’ve finished almost 100 days of school.  Zoe has been a champ.  My work schedule has been a bit more demanding this fall than normal and I’m also training someone to take over my position at church.  So school hasn’t been on the front burner like I had dreamed it would be.  Matter of fact, we have barely touched the school room we set up.  I’m using it right now only because my office downstairs has been dismantled for the move.  Hopefully we’ll get back on track in February, once we’ve settled in at Waynesville.  GAH!  I can’t even believe I’m typing that.  Once we get there, we’ll start tackling Multiplication.  She’s been working on cursive and is doing an amazing job for being practically self-taught.

We also celebrated her 8th birthday yesterday.  She’s 8.  What?!  I can’t even.  Time just flies.  Seriously.  It just flies faster each year.  She got to pick lunch, dinner and of course, there were games at Chuck E Cheese.  Lots of presents and food!  As of the typing of this post, we are gearing up for her to have a slumber party tonight with 4 of her friends.  That should be interesting.  We have lots of fun things planned – manis, pedis, a sundae bar, pizza, popcorn, movies and face painting.

Work

Logo for website 300Transition is hard.  At least for me.  Over the last 2 months I’ve been training the new Office Admin for New Day.  It’s been fun because I love training and overseeing.  But it’s been hard because I don’t want to lose my job here or lose the tightness of this community.  The thought of moving away and starting FRESH freaks me out a little bit.  Yes, we can call.  Yes, people can visit.  But it’s different.  Period.  Life goes on.  Changes happen.  Things get decided.  And I’m no longer a part of it.  Very.  Hard.  Very. Strange.  But I’m super stoked because Johanna is going to do an amazing job and I fully believe I won’t even be missed in this area.  (But I better be missed in general!)

We’ve decided that we are going to work when we first move to Waynesville.  So I’m fortunate that I get to keep my virtual position with the Association of REALTORS here.  I love what I do and it’s fun being able to put systems in place, trouble shoot and train.  We aren’t sure what Shannon will be doing just yet, but it’ll work out.  It always does.  God has had this planned from the beginning.  So we rest in that.  And listen.  We try to listen to everything He says through the various ways He talks to us.

Moving

2014-12-19 17.20.5627 days from today we move.  Just. Wow.  We will go up after the new year and find a place to live.  Then we come back and basically pack and move.  Our last Sunday at New Day will be January 11th.  And we preach one last time on December 28th.  So strange.  I wish I could find the words to convey the plethora of emotions that course through me at any given point.

I’m going to miss being here so much. I’m going to miss family, friends, our community.  All of it.  I hate the thought of no longer being a part of the every day-ness of life here as I’ve known it for the past 6 years at New Day and the past 24 years living here in Summerville.

Yet at the same time, I’m so excited!  I’m so anxious to get to Waynesville and dig in to what God has planned for us – a new life, a new routine, a new adventure.  All of it.  I know He has things in store we can’t even imagine.  I’m so thrilled to be on this next phase of the journey.  I am.

Logo 300x300But today, today I’m not excited.  I’m reflective.  I’m melancholy.  I’m contemplative.  I’m spending time soaking up all of these things here that I can, being as fully present as possible.  I don’t want to miss a thing.

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Eleven Years & We’ve Only Just Begun

Our Wedding 015I really don’t even know how to begin this or what I’m going to say.  There’s a lot I wish I could write here, but you and I both know that wouldn’t be wise.  Some things are better left just between you and I.  But I remember.   I remember it all.  I ponder it and hold it close, like a hidden treasure meant only for my eyes.

And then, there are those things that I know I can share.  Those things that make up who we are, who the world sees, who we want to become.  Things like how much I appreciate your willingness to go the extra mile, your need to make sure our home is a place where everyone feels welcome, your huge heart that can’t let someone go hungry while we enjoy a scrumptious meal, your fierce loyalty and your incredible strength. Things like how the way you look at me makes me feel like I am the most beautiful woman on the planet.  I love how, even after 11 years, you can’t walk by me without touching me.  I remember those things.  I cherish them.

1208575_10151882517273939_1453081765_nBut all of these things have come with a price, haven’t they?  We didn’t just wake up one morning and everything clicked in place.  We have had to consciously work on this relationship.  We have had to look out for each other, take note of those things that helped the other person feel loved, secure and cherished.  I think we’ve learned over the last year how to continue to do all of these things even while the world around us – our world – feels anything BUT secure.

What a year, eh?  What an amazing, frustrating, scary, fun, redemptive, chaotic year.  We have endured quite a bit, you and I.  We have trekked through nursing your mom back to health after a scary few mMARYS WEDDING 5 (2)onths on the edge.  We have worked through helping our kids with their own set of issues and frustrations, all while trying to maintain some semblance of normalcy.  We have heard the voice of God telling us to uproot everything and move to another state to start a church from scratch – to leave behind our community, our friends, our family and to go off on an amazing, crazy adventure.   And here we are, at the end of 2014, looking at a future that isn’t quite mapped out yet, but we see the faint outlines of a road.  So we follow it.  One small step at a time.

10371933_10152919164573939_1316734986902746276_nWe’ve walked through our darkest place in marriage so far and we came out on the other side, stronger for it. And that was mostly because of your amazing heart, your ability to show the Father’s love even when your flesh screamed no.  I don’t know about you, but I think this year has taught me so much about relationship, about marriage, about our friendship, our love and our covenant bond.  It’s sacred.  All of it.  And as time passes and we continue to grow together, I’m learning that there are deeper levels of intimacy and strength and grace and forgiveness that we can show, simply because we choose to stay, we choose to say yes to God and yes to each other – every. day. that. we. live.

So, here we are.

Married 11 years today.

And I’m thankful.

I’m thankful for you.  For everything about you.  For your amazing heart, your kindness, your gentle ways, your tenderness and the grace you show every day.  But most of all I’m just thankful you love me still, even after all of this time.  

11 years today, but we’ve only just begun. . . .

Here’s to the most amazing journey yet . . . with you. . . with us. . . I love you babe.

Happy Anniversary!